Now We Are Free
This brutalist structure in cement was sparked by a sketch that instantly came to mind whilst listening to Now we are free from gladiator by Hans Zimmer. Sung by Czarina Russel.
Music of inspiration.
Now we are free by Hans Zimmer. Sung by Czarina Russel.
During the construction of this piece I was strangely wary not to take on board the film in fear I may elaborate. And still I haven’t seen the film.
What did contribute to the presence of this piece was my response to something a friend once said.
“ We are often not as we would like to be, but as others make us.”
Maybe so, but not everyone was party to your making.
There is good and bad on all sides.
It’s our efforts that are often misplaced and party to our demise.
Endeavour to tread kindly for yourself if not others.
Polished plaster type finish.
Little shrines in drawers
Every item in this two drawer assemblage holds deep rooted sentiment in all its stages. From childhood to 2016.
What sparked this piece was the deep sense of betrayal some of these items can impose just thinking about passing them on. It’s one of the many stages I’ve heard people go through.
It hurts as much to keep them as it would to give them away. So we put them away. Until…
I suppose eventually down the line sentiment eases or value becomes a lifeline. Or you die.
My friend once said looking at a collection of thimbles in a charity shop “She was a lovely lady.” meaning the owner had recently died.
Working in charity shops I’ve seen this many times. And much needed funds for good causes are raised from it. That’s a plus.
All said, I was torn at first using personal items in this way.
But when it was done I was fine with It.
Wall or free standing
To let go.
Strangely enough, when I think of a drawing, the first thing that comes to mind is a red ochre spattered handprint of a caveman. From that comes to mind a child's wire frame drawing of home with its rectangles, squares and triangle of sorts.
On the surface both so beautifully primary.
To let go.
I must have been around five years old and although it was dark out, it must have been summer time as I wasn't too cold. Maybe 00: 30am.
My mother was spurring me and my older sister on to race ahead down the street. We were all being chased by a man with a knife. My mother's drunk of a partner.
So easily we could have safely raced ahead but for the tether of concern for our mother between us and this desperate situation.
Hopefully the tethered rigid tension and angles of this little figure standing ground presents a sense of great urgency and concern.
like the caveman and child, I strived to convey the human experience in me but without my usual surface embellishments.
On the surface so beautifully primary.
Back to the drunk with the knife. We did all get away safely as an approaching police van sped up to arrest him.
My mother did say that on visiting him the next day at the police station, he was black and blue. So make of that what you will.
Medium/pencil on tracing paper/cream backing paper.
I was walking down the highstreet and just ahead of other pedestrians was this lone pigeon desperate not to be stepped on. At first people were almost taken to kicking it until noticing it was hurt, then they almost become concerned.
I know of a similar situation (and heard of others) concerning rough sleepers, homeless and so on that we only afforded our compassion on their demise.
In this piece, the cold rough sleeper seeks refuge in a casket which represents the charity he would receive if he was found dead.
A bit extreme I know, but for one reason or another these days it has to reach such a point to just warrant our attention let alone our compassion. And then it's short lived.
I suppose are they genuine comes to mind given the amount of scammers around pretending to be homeless and in distress.
But let's not end on that note. If you're not sure but would like to help, maybe take a look at https://www.bigissue.org.uk/ Even buy it from a vendor from time to time.
Sign of the times.
Donated to Manchester Big Issue 1994
Manchester Cathedral 2018
Strange as it may seem from a (so-called) none believer that it so deeply saddens me to hear of a good lifelong believer starting to doubt in their faith. I so much want to assure them. But I cannot. So I lend a shoulder to lean on and say nothing of my own standing on such issues.
This piece is in response to such persons of latter years. And a couple who lost children.
Pilgrims relic started out as a sort of rosary. It’s meant to be handled. Pondered upon. And represents faiths mortal journey. From beginning to end.
I suppose the key elements to this piece are the head of the virgin mother haloed at the top of the cross structure.
The bundled figure lower down representing both baby Jesus wrapped in Swaddling clothes and the body of Jesus bound in linen cloth held firm to the cross.
And mainly the skeletal mortal presence in its every challenging twist and turn that is the pilgrims relic of the people who sparked this piece.
Pilgrims relic does have a sense of the nativity about it. And this is probably due to a couple of occasions where people have expressed loosing faith due to the loss of a child.
Gifted to Manchester Cathedral 2018
In my youth the first thing I headed for in my local museum was the Egyptian mummy. I never saw a dead person. I used to look at the face and think that person used to eat, drink, talk in a strange language. Have a family. They used to walk and go about their daily life as I do now. And as do their descendents right now.
It’s like looking at yourself in the past.
This piece is a scale model of what I’d hope to build full size one day and show in a museum setting.
Descendant is designed to be viewed diagonally with the black line leading directly from the empty sarcophagus to you, the descendant.
The angel to the right, a rebirth.
The black totem of sorts to the left representing two dreams of rebirth. One being my own.
The black totem
The tree/branch side of the totem is my dream.
At the top of the tree is a light (hole)
Up the tree on a branch is a figure (my uncle)
And at the base of the tree looking up is me (the notch)
My uncle didn’t believe in god and said as much many times.
On his death I dreamt he was up a tree surrounded by complete darkness but for a spotlight above highlighting him, the surrounding branches, base of the tree and me.
I looked up at him and asked, “Well, is there a god?”
He replied thoughtfully, “ Well, there is something!”
And that was it.
The heart and the fish side of the totem is a dream shared with me so isn’t mine to tell.
Hope is the light around darkness waiting.
I suppose this piece is the flip side of Heaven or not 1993 no 24.
I’ve heard so many people say they don’t believe in god but believe there is something. I sense it's hope.
Hope is the light around darkness waiting. And that’s my spin on this piece.
Heaven or not
1993/no 24 small painting to the right, also pictured.
This picks up on the bombardment of some so-called believers I knew whose faith was almost venomous elitism. Hell and damnation for the none conformist was their soul solution to world peace.
You’d think venomous elitism was more a trait of evil not good, wouldn’t you?
Medium/acrylic on canvas.
Height 30 cm
Depth 2 cm
How I felt last Monday
In private collection.
Medium/modelling clay and fibreglass